That was a very convincing argument that I made to myself; why is that?
2020, for the past 5 years, I have been living in a refugee camp in a very harsh life that I didn’t want to imagine myself living that kind of life. When I went at Kepler in Kigali to do my undergrad, the pandemic came in a middle of the programme and I was confused.
But, but I was sure about something: I din’t want to go back to the refugee camp; just living there again wasn’t part of my options. So, I had to fight to make my way, to make a living in Kigali otherwise, I am going back in Mahama refugee camp with no internet, no electricity… nothing for sure.
I would tell friends, you know what…
Think whatever you want, do whatever you wish but don’t ever put a thought in your head of going back to live in the refugee camp because nothing good is coming your way if you do. Almost everyone was having the same thought as I was, NOT GOING BACK TO LIVE IN THE REFUGEE CAMP AT ANY COST.
The cost I paid was doing unpaid/under paid internships, volunteering, hard work, doing three jobs at the same time and a loss of appetite for a solid 3 years. My body was burning calories at a higher rate than never before and the thing was, I didn’t have enough apetite to consume enough calories to off set the fast metabolism of mine. I was skinny as hell…. But it was worth it.
I finally found my way, I had made enough connexions in Kigali that I am well positioned to have a job for survival until the point I decided I no longer want to live on survival jobs but I want to live my life as well; I need to work, I need to prepare my future; so, what I did, I quit all the f*king jobs and started the hunt for a real job; for a real fair paying job with high responsibilities of course. I felt life I am playing below my league, I wanted something challenging enough for me to feel my mind stimulated.
That’s when I came to a conclusion saying that, the moment you cross something off your list among options, that same moment your mind generate some proteins to strengthen your other options so that you get to your destination. You actually forget it and start building up/coming up with other options.
I used this funny statement saying ‘Jesus said to his disciples, go to the city and wait for me there; that’s where I will find you’. I convinced myself that I am going to wait here until I find an option to live for and I did find it eventually.
—- Jado